Mom,
My personal manager from wake up until I go to bed again.Thank you for being the biggest supporter in my life. Thank you for being the very first person who always care and worry about me. Sometimes I think you as my girlfriend, coz you always want to know what I'm doin, where I am now, and with whom I go. hahaha but I think our relationship as sweet as a dating couple. LOL
But honestly, sometimes I feel uncomfortable when you texting me too much when I busy, but I feel so guilty at the same times when I do ignore the messages although unintentionally. You know me more than anyone in this world, my liking, my favorites, my habits. I love the way you support me, always. I love hearing your voice when I feel so down. You are the strongest women on earth, I named you "Wonder Woman" and you even named me back with the same thing.
I know you've been through the up and down in your life. But I want you to know, in every down phase in your life, let me hold your hand and through everything and be your supporter as you always do for me.
I really miss you mom, sometimes I want to hug you tight right before I have to go back to travel to Bandung. But I never do it because I feel so embarrassed in front of you. I miss to say 'good night' and kiss your cheeks before I go to bed every night. But I'm too big to do it again at this age, mom. hehehehe
Remember when I was a kid, every time I do a mistake, it's so easy for me to say "Maafin ade ya Ma" and begging you for not to be upset again, but as I grow up, it's so difficult for me to say those phrase again. I'm being too stubborn. I really sorry mom.
And I'm sorry for not being a good kid for you. I lack in many things to be a good kid. Sometimes we have a tense conversations, sometimes I hurt you with my words. And maybe you sleep with tears because of my bad behavior. I'm really sorry, I don't mean it mom.
Mom, I'm sorry. Sometimes I couldn't tell you, when I was sick, even very sick, when I'm in a troubles, or when I'm feeling down. I just don't want to make you worry too much. Sometimes I have a tears on my eyes while I'm texting you, but I should to look strong as your imagine, I should to look fine in front of you. And I'm feeling grateful because I got the 'strong' side it's from you.
Thank you so much, and I'm sorry for everything.
Words are never enough.
Ever.
Forever, I love you mom.
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